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Well…. Been a bit of a year hasn’t it?

I can hand on my heart say 2020 was one of the most challenging and yet best years of my life – so much happened and yet at the same time, the world slowed down enough to allow me to really process it.

3 months into 2021 and I feel like we are on similar paths, with another 3 months of the Pandemic to go (hopefully) I thought now would be a great time to reflect on what I have learnt and what I want to focus on during the last spell.

There is so much beauty to be taken from every chapter of our lives, even the most challenging.

So here are some things I experienced personally, that shook up my world and my way of living

1 – Fook me sideways and call me sally, we take a hell of a lot ‘norm’ for granted don’t we? From a simple coffee on a park bench to cocktails and hugs with the girls. Simply spending time with our families at Christmas and other holidays. I cannot wait to give my mum a cuddle and dance the night away with my girls.

2 – I am more grateful than ever for the job I have and the career I’ve built to date. Sure I still have days where I can’t be assed… I’m human. But 99% of the time I am so grateful for the business that keeps a roof over my head and during that 99% of the time I am 100% focused on what I can give that business to keep us afloat.

3 – Working from home sucks. I used to be one of those women who wanted to be a total boss babe, owning her own hours and working from home in the luxury of my pjs. Safe to say that idealistic view on working from home withered – very – effing quickly. I was ecstatic when my boss called to say there was a covid safe environment to work from if I wanted it – Yo girl jumped on that sh*t and quickly got herself back into a routine.

4 – Dating during a pandemic…. Ahah… lets just not go there. If people’s mentality towards dating wasn’t conflicted enough in this day and age (we’ll talk more about this on another post sometime) then being limited to walks in the park and attempting to get to know one another through a screen certainly didn’t improve that in my opinion. Self-relationships however – now those have been a hit!! I do hope for those in existing relationships with others that they used the time to strengthen what they had… however I am not blind to the fact that the domestic violence cases rising in the UK it would appear the pandemics effect on mental health in relationships also caused a lot of issues for some. Which brings me to my next point…

5 – This last year more than ever, it has become a huge task to take care of our mental health. Protecting our energy, ensuring to stay in touch with the outside world whilst being isolated has been more important than ever. None of our lives have been the same, everything we knew for a while just wasn’t and learning to adapt to those changes without mentally going of the rail has been something, we have all had to focus on. In a way, I am grateful that we all as a collective got put in the same boat and I do think how we got through the last 12 months and we get through the next 6-12 months will be pivotal moments in strengthening our mental health to build healthy foundations for the future.

6 – I got more comfortable than ever in my own skin. I would say in the last 12 months I have been the least consistent with my fitness routine, with my ‘healthy’ eating. There has just been blocks of time where it hasn’t been important to me or I just couldn’t get there with my motivation. Learning to be okay with that after 5 years of feeling like I HAD to be continuously on the ball, then allowed me to appreciate it so much more when I did get back into the swing of things.

7- I fell in love. Okay there was no huge successful lockdown romance for me, but I did welcome Prince Teddington my handsome King Charles Cavalier Spaniel into my life. I rehomed Teddy who is 5 from a lady who could no longer take care of him. How she could give him up I will never know, but who am I to judge and damn am I grateful to have him in my life. He is simply the best thing to ever happen to me, learning to love him so selflessly and having that unconditional love returned to me has been the most magical experience and I am so so so grateful.

7 – Less is 100% more. In 2020 just before the second lockdown I moved into my own apartment, this in itself was scary because I had never lived entirely alone before made even more scary because I knew the state of the economy when I moved and it was always financially a higher risk than it would have been before. So I’ve been living life a little more on a budget – learning to shop around more, wasting less and appreciating a bargain when I find one but I’ve really enjoyed the challenge and touch wood, I’ve managed to live fairly comfortably with my bills paid in full!

8 – People come and people go, but I will always know who was there for me, who called, who checked in when the chips were down and the world was silent. Some of my friendships strengthened and some fell away, I learnt grace in accepting and letting go.

9 – Compassion is one of your best super powers. Look, every single person in this world, your ex boyfriend, the fck boy who ghosted you, the drama queen in your office, that friend who only ever speaks about herself – they all have their own sh*t going on, they all have their own battles to face. The easiest way to deal with these souls is to remember they are human and they deserve the same level of compassion as you do. Releasing your judgement of them, understanding and accepting sometimes other peoples actions really have nothing to do with you and focusing only on what you can control within yourself, is the only thing you need to do.

10 – I believe in the law of attraction more than ever. If I can come out of a Pandemic with a roof over my head, my bills paid in full, the unconditional love of a beautiful pooch and my career still in tact – because I had faith that I would – then imagine what I can achieve and attract into my life when this pandemic is over and opportunities are more easily accessible.

11 – Crayola are life. If you follow me, you know.


Blonde Vs Working From Home!

I felt like I had to live the lifestyle for a little bit before I could address this one.
I'll be real with you, it took me the first 3 weeks of lockdown to get into flow, build firm habits.

My lockdown started 4 weeks ago because I had a cold that sent me into isolation as the Pandemic began taking form in the UK. Talk about crap timing, I hardly ever get sick!
Working from home, is not as appealing as it would first seem. Initially I got back ache because I would literally sit at my desk for 8 hours solid. My eyes would sting because I was constantly staring at my screen, and we had to adjust to being entirely paperless - something my job where I am has never been. I felt like I was going from my bed to my desk to my bed for the first week.

By week 2 I knew I had to get some healthy routine in place for myself otherwise this lockdown was going to be even harder than it already is.

So here is the current weekday routine:

  • 5.30am the alarm goes off, this on the other side of my room and I have housemates. Not wanting to piss them off is what gets me out of bed in the mornings.
  • Down a bottle of water to rehydrate, make a coffee to dehydrate..
  • Get in the shower, stare into space for about 5 minutes until the shower finally starts to wake me up.
  • Shave and all that jazz. (My legs not my beard you cheeky monkeys)
  • Sit in my towel staring at the wall for about 5 minutes, then start hair, make up and so on. I normally have a youtube video or audio book on in the background and I drink the coffee I made as I get myself together for the day.
  • Get dressed, make another coffee.. (don't judge me) and some breakfast.
  • Journal my daily gratitudes and affirmations.
  • Read a daily page of the Confident Woman Devotional by Joyce Meyer Post my daily gratitude / 366 on Instagram.
  • Brush my teeth.
  • Guided meditation (I find them on youtube) 5-15 minutes depending on how much time I have left over.
  • 8.30am - Log into work.
  • 10.30am - Force myself to take a break - walk away from my desk for 5 minutes to make a drink or a snack.
  • 12.30pm - either go for a walk or do 30 minutes of home workout or yoga. Make and eat some lunch and back at my desk for 13.15.
  • 15.15 - take a 5 minute break - walk away from the desk.
  • Continue work until 17.15 and then log out for the day. If I didn't take a walk in my lunch I will do so then, or exercise. Basically the opposite of what I did at lunch is what I will do to wind down before making dinner and relaxing for the evening.

So that is my daily routine that is keeping me sane. If I get a little lonely, which to be honest I don't I have a daily video meeting online with my colleagues and we keep in touch via WhatsApp through out the day, but if I do feel a little lonely or uninspired I will put a audio book on in the background for company.
Here are some things I am really strict to myself about: 

  1. Always, always - getting myself dressed and put together as if I would when showing up for anything else. I tried working in my PJs the first day, it was the most unproductive day ever.
  2. I never have the TV or anything that can really distract me from my workload
  3. I have to get up and walk around and be active every 2-3 hours for maximum productivity
  4. Drinking a minimum of 2L water through out the work day to keep my brain fresh
  5. Not slacking, if anything - I work harder from home - just don't tell my boss because I kinda really miss my comfy office chair!

Much Love, Blondie xox


Baking with Blondie: Healthy Oat Bread Thingy!

Whilst I enjoy being creative in the kitchen - I'm a busy woman (when there's not a pandemic) and I am what they would call a very slap dash cook.
For this reason quite often it's hard to write up recipes because I'll follow half a recipe from a book, and then wing the rest with my a little bit of this and a little bit of that method...
I'm random, of course my style of cooking is going to be random right?
Anyways, I found and adapted the following recipe to my taste in one of my many healthy eating books that I buy and never make anything out off....
What better time is there to get creative on our food with all this time on our hands?
I present to you: Healthy Oat Bread Thingy! Most of the ingredients you likely already have to hand and all of them are easy to get, unlike loo roll currently.

  • 300g easy cook oats
  • 400g 0% fat free natural yoghurt
  • 2 medium eggs
  • 70g seeds
  • Another 10g seeds to top
  • 1 tablespoon of Italian chopped herbs
  • 1 tsp pink salt (mineral rich!)
  • 1 tsp baking powder
Method of madness:

  1. Preheat the oven to 180 degree's Celsius
  2. Combine the oats, 70g seeds, baking powder & salt in a large mixing bowl
  3. Stir in the eggs and yoghurt and give it a really good mix
  4. Pour your mix into a lightly greased non stick bread tin
  5. Bake for 25 minutes at 180 then turn the oven down to 150 for a further 25 minutes.

Enjoy! Blondie xox


ImaStay Blondie!

It’s 3 months into the 2020, Megs n Harry have left the UK, the UK has left the EU, Boris hasn't invested in a new hair piece and Coronavirus has well and truely moved in!
Stocks have plummeted, with the exception of Andrex who err are doing exceptionally well as people flood the supermarkets in a bid to keep their bums safe from this killer respiratory disease…. Say’s everything really doesn’t it.
On the bright side, people are now learning the importance of washing their hands, and every day is a happy birthday!
& Blondie, said goodbye to Blonde Ambitionz and Hello to Namaste Blondie! Cuz ya know, Ima stay Blondie. Only, alot has changed. I am a completley different woman to who I was 6 month's ago, and I don't even remember the girl who started Blonde Ambitionz 5 years ago. 
It's been amazing, but it's time to move forward. 
So what else has been new? Why have I been so absent this year.... well, my loves... 
Already, it’s been a massive year for me in terms of personal growth. In fact, the last 2-3 years of my life have been incredibly eye opening. I’ve probably learnt more about myself and other people in the last 2-3 years than I have in the last 10.
That said, it takes the occasional break from blogging and sharing parts of me, and creating content for you – to be able to really be present and experience things properly.  
I had so much I planned to talk about, a whole reflection on 2019 post and a shit ton of ideas and goals I was going to list on Blonde Ambitionz to ‘make me accountable’ for 2020 then January 1st came and I just was not feeling it…
If I’m not feeling it, I just can’t write. Just call me the freestyler yo. Yah I said that.  
So, I thought instead I would live out the goals, and talk about them after. It’s working out pretty well and so I intend to continue to do that with all my social media for the rest of this year.
Its day 74 of 2020 and here are some of the things I have been working on doing consistently for the past 74 days:
  1. Morning pages: this consists of 8 things I am grateful for, 5 affirmations and as many daily intentions as I am feeling.
  2. Meditation, I won’t lie I sucked at it when I started and some days I still very much suck at meditating but then there are the days when I pull it off, I manage to lose my mind in the meditation and quiet my thoughts – the whole purpose of meditation.
  3. Timekeeping – in 2019 my timekeeping at work was errrr well shockingly bad. Let’s face it you’ll be lucky if I make it to my own funeral on time. January was my best month, I worked over my hours most day, arriving early or on time. I think I was no more than 5 minutes late to anything all of Feb and March okay I haven’t been perfect in March, but I’ve not been later than my core working hours and both week’s I’ve at least been even with my hours. I’ll keep working on it.
  4. Content – I may have been nonexistent on the blog for 2020 until today (sup) but if you do follow my Instagram, I have been consistent in sharing one thing I am grateful for every single day of 2020.
  5. Balance. If you know me at all, you will know I have two modes: all the way in or all the way out. I do not do limbo or floating in the middle. I have been like this in 99% of areas of my life. For as long as I can remember. It’s the reason I get as much as I do - done, but it’s also the reason I can be left feeling physically and mentally drained. A blessing and a curse. Now I wouldn’t say I’ve nailed this part but I have definitely made massive improvements. Instead of thinking I must train 5-6 days a week, if I didn’t, I was a failure. (Yah I know, right) in 2020 I committed to 3-4 days of exercise and anything else is a bonus. That training doesn’t have to just be weight lifting, some days I just want to walk my thoughts out on the treadmill, some days I want to stretch it out in Yoga and other days I just mess around trying to replicate exercises I’ve seen people do on Instagram. On the days I don’t train I catch up with my peoples or I just chill by myself (I’ll do a post soon about my opinions on the importance of being able to chill by yourself!)

But the thing I am proudest of this year, is my ability to adapt to whatever situation has arisen in my life without allowing my anxiety to take toooo much control over me. There’s been a couple of testing moments, that in the past would have knocked me for ten that I’ve managed to pretty much just take on the chin. See I gots more of that faith thingy in me this year. Maybe that comes from knowing that I’ve got through some pretty horrific shit in my lifetime, and I am built to be able to get through more or maybe it’s because I learnt to trust that there’s a whole world of opportunities out there and what is for me will be, and what isn’t will soon be replaced by something that is.
We only have lessons or blessings, and most lessons are the key to unlocking the blessings.
Life is good, Blondie is good & it’s good to be back!
Speak Soon & Namaste xoxo