It’s
a reasonably sunny day and we decide to take a stroll down the street, at the
end of the street an overgrown shabby tree has fallen and there appears to be
no way around… as we stare at this tree looking for options the weather starts
to turn & before we know it we’re attempting to hide under the branches of
this tree to shield ourselves from a mammoth storm.
The
storm appears never ending and until it stops, we can’t even begin to think
about how we are going to overcome the obstacle that is the shabby old tree.
The
walk – defines our standard journey through life
The
tree – defines our obstacles (one of many)
The
storm – defines our fear
See
if we could pluck up the courage to stand up and keep going through the storm,
we would find a quicker route around that obstacle…
Something
similar happened to me recently. I was dancing through life blissfully unaware
of my surroundings and I would keep bumping into these little obstacles.. that’s
general day to day wear. Then a storm started to brew and a large obstacle was
thrown in front of me.
If
I was still thinking the way I was a month ago, I would say it was blown on top
of me. I felt trapped.
In
my mind, the storm was defeating me and I was shivering under the branches of
the broken down tree. I felt broken.
This
continued for around 8 weeks, although 4 I was really down in the storm drains.
When
I look back on it now, I am in no way being dramatic when I say I am damn proud
of myself for surviving the wars playing out in my mind.
I
sought help from family, I messaged my mum 10,000 times a day, I bent my
friends ear off with my woes forgetting to ask them about their day, I googled
tactics to ‘get over it’, and I sought help from doctors when I began to lose
so much weight I was unrecognisable.
Each
one of those things helped me.. in some way or another. But what got me
through?
A
mental change in direction.
See
when you reach that sort of low, eventually you run out of fear - I ran out of
fear…
I
cried until the tears dried out, scrambled through the muddy puddles and
crawled into a walk in the opposite direction of my fear.
The
further I walked the less it rained… and I began to believe “just a few more
rainy days and the sun will appear”
Eventually
the rain stopped…. A week or so after that the clouds began to separate and
rays of sunshine eventually shone through.
We
can’t avoid bad weather, we can’t avoid natural disasters or even wars in our
mind.
But
we can fight through them.
Step
by Step
Day
by Day
&
you will be so thankful you did.
~ Blonde xox
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