One of the
toughest pills I had to swallow when I was in my lowest point of my emotional breakdown
was that I, Janine, was 100% responsible for it.
·
I
hadn’t had any therapy for the issues in my childhood that kept creeping up and
haunting my relationships.
·
I
hadn’t made peace with my past.
·
I
hadn’t learnt to love myself so that the love of another was a bonus not an
essential.
·
I
chose to let people outstay their welcome in my life, disrespect me, tread on
my confidence.
·
I
chose loyalty to others over loyalty to myself.
·
I
hadn’t forgiven myself for mistakes and ‘failures’ in my life. Yes I make
mistakes.
·
I
chased people that had no intentions of being caught. Relentlessly. To the point
of humiliation. I did that out of fear of a loss for something that was never
mine.
·
I
lived in denial for many months, smiling in public and then sobbing myself to
sleep.
·
I
genuinely believed I didn’t deserve anything better than the life I was living.
The beautiful
thing is, when I finally woke up, stared this bullshit in the face, got the
help I needed and started releasing the negative behaviours, one at a time - TAKING RESPONSIBILITY – everything started
changing. I let go of people that were hurting me and made room for new, incredible
people vibrating on these amazing frequencies to come into my life. Effortlessly.
My only regret?
That I didn’t do it sooner.
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