ImaStay Blondie!

It’s 3 months into the 2020, Megs n Harry have left the UK, the UK has left the EU, Boris hasn't invested in a new hair piece and Coronavirus has well and truely moved in!
Stocks have plummeted, with the exception of Andrex who err are doing exceptionally well as people flood the supermarkets in a bid to keep their bums safe from this killer respiratory disease…. Say’s everything really doesn’t it.
On the bright side, people are now learning the importance of washing their hands, and every day is a happy birthday!
& Blondie, said goodbye to Blonde Ambitionz and Hello to Namaste Blondie! Cuz ya know, Ima stay Blondie. Only, alot has changed. I am a completley different woman to who I was 6 month's ago, and I don't even remember the girl who started Blonde Ambitionz 5 years ago. 
It's been amazing, but it's time to move forward. 
So what else has been new? Why have I been so absent this year.... well, my loves... 
Already, it’s been a massive year for me in terms of personal growth. In fact, the last 2-3 years of my life have been incredibly eye opening. I’ve probably learnt more about myself and other people in the last 2-3 years than I have in the last 10.
That said, it takes the occasional break from blogging and sharing parts of me, and creating content for you – to be able to really be present and experience things properly.  
I had so much I planned to talk about, a whole reflection on 2019 post and a shit ton of ideas and goals I was going to list on Blonde Ambitionz to ‘make me accountable’ for 2020 then January 1st came and I just was not feeling it…
If I’m not feeling it, I just can’t write. Just call me the freestyler yo. Yah I said that.  
So, I thought instead I would live out the goals, and talk about them after. It’s working out pretty well and so I intend to continue to do that with all my social media for the rest of this year.
Its day 74 of 2020 and here are some of the things I have been working on doing consistently for the past 74 days:
  1. Morning pages: this consists of 8 things I am grateful for, 5 affirmations and as many daily intentions as I am feeling.
  2. Meditation, I won’t lie I sucked at it when I started and some days I still very much suck at meditating but then there are the days when I pull it off, I manage to lose my mind in the meditation and quiet my thoughts – the whole purpose of meditation.
  3. Timekeeping – in 2019 my timekeeping at work was errrr well shockingly bad. Let’s face it you’ll be lucky if I make it to my own funeral on time. January was my best month, I worked over my hours most day, arriving early or on time. I think I was no more than 5 minutes late to anything all of Feb and March okay I haven’t been perfect in March, but I’ve not been later than my core working hours and both week’s I’ve at least been even with my hours. I’ll keep working on it.
  4. Content – I may have been nonexistent on the blog for 2020 until today (sup) but if you do follow my Instagram, I have been consistent in sharing one thing I am grateful for every single day of 2020.
  5. Balance. If you know me at all, you will know I have two modes: all the way in or all the way out. I do not do limbo or floating in the middle. I have been like this in 99% of areas of my life. For as long as I can remember. It’s the reason I get as much as I do - done, but it’s also the reason I can be left feeling physically and mentally drained. A blessing and a curse. Now I wouldn’t say I’ve nailed this part but I have definitely made massive improvements. Instead of thinking I must train 5-6 days a week, if I didn’t, I was a failure. (Yah I know, right) in 2020 I committed to 3-4 days of exercise and anything else is a bonus. That training doesn’t have to just be weight lifting, some days I just want to walk my thoughts out on the treadmill, some days I want to stretch it out in Yoga and other days I just mess around trying to replicate exercises I’ve seen people do on Instagram. On the days I don’t train I catch up with my peoples or I just chill by myself (I’ll do a post soon about my opinions on the importance of being able to chill by yourself!)

But the thing I am proudest of this year, is my ability to adapt to whatever situation has arisen in my life without allowing my anxiety to take toooo much control over me. There’s been a couple of testing moments, that in the past would have knocked me for ten that I’ve managed to pretty much just take on the chin. See I gots more of that faith thingy in me this year. Maybe that comes from knowing that I’ve got through some pretty horrific shit in my lifetime, and I am built to be able to get through more or maybe it’s because I learnt to trust that there’s a whole world of opportunities out there and what is for me will be, and what isn’t will soon be replaced by something that is.
We only have lessons or blessings, and most lessons are the key to unlocking the blessings.
Life is good, Blondie is good & it’s good to be back!
Speak Soon & Namaste xoxo